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My Beautiful Flaw: Mental Health Awareness Week

Dear Psychosis, If that’s even your real name. I want to say thank you. Thank you for introducing me to parts of myself that I’d never known, and for reintroducing me to the essence of Ellis. Who she was, who she is and who she could be. You forced me to heal from trauma bonds […]

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New Year Intentions: Dear 2020, I’m Ready.

Can you believe that 2019 is almost a thing of the past and we’re heading into a brand-new decade? Well, believe it because it’s time. As I get ready to step into 2020 I’m reflecting on the past year, and just how far I’ve come. From losing my polluted mind to finding ways to be […]

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I’m Not Settling, And That’s That.

Somebody that I used to know used to tell me that I’m too much of a dreamer and that my expectations for a relationship were unrealistic. There were also times I was told that I wasn’t a “real woman” seeing as my idea of how things could work were nothing like the girls he dated […]

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Hiding From The Worlds Expectations: Here I Am.

It’s been a while, but here I am, back for the millionth time ready to explain my absence, followed by a promise (that I can’t keep) to be more consistent. In reality, I have no idea if I’ll be able to stick around because the more I share, the more afraid I become of the […]

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Psychosis: The End Of One Mind, The Beginning Of Another

“Remember what they did to you. You can’t trust them”, said a voice clearer in sound than anything I’ve ever heard before. I was alone, assuming I was overhearing a neighbour’s conversation, until it called my name. “Ellis”, it called me louder and louder until I followed it straight outside, but nobody was there. Yet, […]

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I Heard Voices When Nobody Was Around, That’s When It Clicked

After spending twenty-four years of being a creative soul, it wouldn’t surprise anybody that knows me to know that my imagination often goes wild and I find myself conversing with the image in the mirror. But what would surprise them, as it surprised me, is the fact that there came a time when the voice that […]

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Why Aren’t You Smiling, Crocodile Teeth?

As I sat with my best friend talking about my realisation of past traumas that I’m still holding onto, she shared something with me. She told me that a family member of hers, who is also someone that I’m connected with, said that they would love to see me smile. It touched me deeply because […]

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