I’m currently sitting outside my accommodation in Chiang Mai and had something on my mind and thought I’d release it.
Days before I left for South East Asia I was given results of some scans/tests I’d had done and one of the results showed that I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS).
I already have Fibromyalgia, which I’ve known for a few years but been suffering with for about 8 years, and I’ve only been able to manage it (sort of) for about a year. I also have Postural Tachycardia Syndrome (POTs), which I was only diagnosed with a couple of months ago, and haven’t even begun figuring out how to manage that. The other result I was given days before I left was that I’m free from tumours but I have a hernia and an unknown mass of muscle, or something else (I need an MRI when I’m back to actually determine what it is), that will need to be surgically fixed; or removed if possible. So add that to an 100lbs female and sprinkle years of battling mental health… I’ve basically been battered. (I’m currently in the best mood ever and reading this sounds so miserable but honestly it’s not intended to be lol!)
NB. I will make separate posts about my Fibromyalgia and POTs soon.
So anyway back to the point… I’m still dealing with trying to manage the illnesses I already have and mentally prepare myself for a little surgery and then I was hit with PCOS.
PCOS is apparently very common and 1 in 10 women have it.
Polycystic ovaries contain a large number of harmless follicles that are up to 8mm in size. The follicles are under-developed sacs in which eggs develop. In PCOS, these sacs are often unable to release an egg, which means that ovulation doesn’t take place.
Main symptoms of PCOS are irregular periods, excess androgen, acne, oily skin, weight gain, hirsutism (excessive hair growth) and hair loss.
NB. It’s new to me so I don’t know much about it and can’t be as informative as I could be with Fibromyalgia for example however there are some pictures/diagrams at the top of the page that help explain it.
Back to me again…
Finding out that I have PCOS definitely makes sense to me because I have had irregular periods since my periods began. Strangely my periods were always quite light but excruciating in terms of pain. They are now heavy and still excruciating which isn’t usually common with PCOS so I’m not really sure what that means. Also, I have excessive hair growth, especially on my stomach and if I don’t want to look like a man then hair removal is a constant process for me! I never suffered from acne until a few months ago and it briefly comes and goes.
After finding out about it, I can definitely connect the dots and understand that I have PCOS and there’s no denial or much changes that I need to make to adapt. There are three things that I’ve found out people do to manage PCOS and they are: lose weight (if they’re overweight), take fertility medication and have a healthier diet.
I’m 100 pounds in weight so I certainly don’t need to lose any and I have quite a healthy diet but I’m going to cut out fried foods completely and cut down majorly on simple carbs; as I’ve heard that will help. My only concern about this is the fertility. I’m currently not in a place where I’m trying to get pregnant but I do want a total of 6 children. Although I plan to adopt, I also plan to conceive naturally and with PCOS being the main cause for infertility it’s really playing on my mind.
In a generation where my peers are using abortions as birth control and working in a job where I deal with child abuse daily, I can’t help but anticipate the day that I have a big family with children that I can teach, protect, love, adore and raise. Having PCOS does not mean that I am infertile but it does lower my chances of fertility and until I start trying for children I won’t actually know if it’s possible for me. It’s not something that should be on my mind so heavily as I’m not trying to conceive right now but for some reason it really is. Volunteering with amazing children has made me the happiest I’ve ever been and now that it’s finished I’m reminded of the news I was given before I left England and I’m feeling curious. I’m trying not to overthink it but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t try to analyse this down to every last detail.
I’m constantly wondering what the plan is for me in life and ultimately what is meant to be will be. It doesn’t hurt to wonder…
If you have PCOS or know someone that does please let me know how it has affected your/their fertility and any other things that you have faced. Also, I’m open to any advice or recommendations for helping to stay as healthy as possible and manage PCOS.
Thank you for reading my word vomit because I needed to let this out.